So, I go out today to do a little shopping and I could not resist picking up the KY Warming Lotion.

I tested it out on the backside of my hand and it felt good.

I can't wait to try it out on Big. But I don't know if I should use it in my pussy or on his dick while I rub it....

I also found an article that explains how to deep throat.

Big loves getting his dick sucked, so I think that I will read that and try to master the techniques.

Oh well...gotta run...

About us, hmmmmmm....let's see if I can describe us...

I am 28, just turned that in May. He is 32. We're both young and have been married for 5 years. I met him when I was 12....at a swimming pool...I wrote in my diary about how beautiful he was and how big his muscles were. He fascinated me even then.

But we lost touch....both went our seperate ways. We both went off to college and it wasn't until years later that we crossed paths.

After a whirlwind courtship, we got married.

I have always been an attention whore. I guess all the attention I get from guys rubbed off on me and I seek it. Everyday I am told about how I look, how smart I am...I can't even leave the house without some one trying to come on to me.

But I am taken.

I am no longer on the market.

My husband hates the attention I get....but then again, I think he enjoys the fact that he has something so many others want. I am not drop dead, but for having four kids, I must say, I look pretty good. I am somewhat conceited, but who isn't. To be confident means to maintain a certain level of conceitedness.

Big, my husband, is extremely handsome. He is 6'3 and weighs 215 lbs....he played football and still maintain his atheletic physique. I love the little grooves that go from the side down to his dick......you know that part of a well-made man that makes him look like a ken doll....it is beautiful.

He is a hardworker....works hard manual labor...and I love that about him. He has the most beautiful eyes....slanted with the longest eyelashes.

I love him so much and just seeing him makes me want to climb on top of him.

Oh well....I want to post pics, but he is not comfortable with that yet...but I am sure that I will convince him sooner than later....just wait...

Ahhhhhhh... I can't wait to get finished on this computer.

Then I can take a ride into ectasy with Big.

His dick is calling my name.

I hear it....trying to ignore it so I can finish up.

Tonight, he is supposed to watch as I pleasure myself...atop him.

I can't wait for my juices to run down his belly as I stick my fingers so far up my tight ass pussy that I can't help but cum....

I want to see my cum all over him....running down the side of his abdominals.....onto the bedsheets.

I want to see him rub it all over his stomach....and then I want to lick it off of him.

It is time for me to say goodbye....as his sleeping body is calling me.

Beckoning me to come to bed.

I must heed my calling.

Here it is almost 11pm and I am horny as hell.

My husband...Big is laying asleep on the bed.

He is supposed to be watching a movie, but he is knocked the fuck out.

I can't wait to climb on top of him, no panties, and pull his shorts down and push his dick inside of me.

At that moment I will feel at ease...

I can't wait for him to grab hold of my ass and squeeze it as I move atop his hardness.

I love the way it feels...at first so soft and then so hard...pounding inside of my wetness.

I want to feel him as he pounds against my body and I straddle him and make it go deeper.

I can't wait.

But where am I?

I am on the computer when I should be on him.

What a sweet and sexy way to wake him.

I am a sexual being. Very aware of who I am. I am a mother. I am a sister. I am a daughter, a wife, a friend...but most importantly I am a woman.

I am a woman who is in touch with not only who she is, but one who is in touch with her sexual side.

I love sex.

I love the feeling of being enclosed in the warmth of another. My husband makes me feel so good...makes my body long for his touch, his being....inside of me. After all, inside of me is where he belongs....making my body arch toward his to meet his sexuality.....I yearn for the moments we have together....the sensation...the passion...the awakening.

I can't keep quiet any longer....so here is where I release the thoughts of my fantasies and what goes on 'behind our bedroom doors'.